Monday, September 22, 2014
When you get down on yourself, remember that you're fabulous!
So I find myself so exhausted these days, so run down. Nobody said this mom thing was easy, I know this, so why do I constantly beat myself up?!
So often I try to imagine how our life could be better and in doing that... I often forget about the blessings that we already have. I've been so focused on what I haven't been able to give my children monetarily that I've forgotten about what I've given them already, my whole heart. I given them the wonderful memories of a good, caring and reliable mother. As hard as it's been financially on our family over the last 12 years, I've been able to stay home and care for my children. Something I never had as a child. I grew up with a single mom just trying to make ends meet. I felt her struggle every day.
I've been so fixated on trying to give my children so much, all of the things I never had, and not realizing that I've done so much already!! I've made every single back to school night, every fund raiser event, every parent conference, everything. Made every school lunch, tucked them in tightly each night. Made fresh breakfast each morning.
Yet why have I been so hard on myself?? Why do I continue to think I'm not giving them enough?? Why??
I'm often reminded of that famous Maya Angelou quote, "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel".
I think when you stop and think about your childhood, it wasn't about the house you grew up in or the fancy clothes you wore, it's about how you felt. My kids remind me everyday that they feel great. That should be enough, that will be enough. I will choose to accept my failures but in the process...I will remind myself that there's no such thing as perfect, and that I'm a pretty fabulous mom!